Forgiving Others

As said in a previous post, hurt and disappointment inflicted by others is an inevitable experience that we all must face at some point in our lives. We have zero control over the actions of others or the negative feelings their actions can sometimes evoke. We can either drag on these feelings of hurt and disappointment or accept what has happened and begin moving on.

When someone has done you wrong, it’s common for you to take on the role of the victim. But the key is not to exploit this role for attention, sympathy and confirmation, which is very easy to do (and you may not even realize that you are doing it). After getting hurt, you really just want to know that at least someone out there cares and that someone is on your side, right? There are plenty of people that care and that are on your side, but this isn’t really the ideal way to go about soliciting their support. (i.e. Telling anyone who will listen about what so & so did to you)

When you ignore someone, talk badly about them, are rude to them, don’t forgive them, etc…you are clearly indicating that you have not yet gotten past the pain that they caused you. In addition to prolonging the drama, you are either consciously or subconsciously trying to spread your pain to them. These are not good, healthy ways to deal with your emotions and get closure. Often times, this causes you to carry baggage into your future relationships. (i.e. Having trust issues because someone cheated on you)

As far as closure goes, I hear too often of people seeking closure from the person that hurt them. It’s natural to want to know what someone was thinking, why they hurt you, if they ever cared about you. 99% of the time, you are not going to get the answers to those questions because nobody likes to admit when they are wrong or dwell on poor decisions. Often times, there really isn’t a valid explanation to be offered if they have even thought about it. I think that actively seeking closure is most times unrealistic. It can’t be forced.
Additionally, the person that hurt you could potentially identify that your closure is dependent on them and take advantage of that. (i.e. Everytime you try to walk away, they do or say something to pull you back into the same emotional roller-coaster)

Forgiveness is something that you do on your own time and of your own will. It should not be dependent on anyone but you. Sometimes you just have to take people for what they are. Regardless of what they did to you, now you know what they are capable of and not to put yourself in that position again and/or to be more cautious. He told me to make the conscious decision to LET IT GO and no longer let anyone or anything (that most times aren’t even worth your time and energy) steal your joy.

If the person that hurt you has apologized and still wants to pursue a friendship or relationship with you, then this is at your discretion. If you choose to continue to deal with this person, you should be a little cautious but also make sure you have truly forgiven them. You can’t hold the past against them when you insinuate that you have forgiven them and are trying to move on. This is taking a step backwards. If you find that you can’t move on with that person serving as a constant reminder of the hurt and disappointment that you experienced, then perhaps it’s a sign that they are no more forward steps in the relationship. At which point, it would be best to continue pursuing the forward steps to forgiveness and moving on independently.

Lastly, Forgiveness is a huge part of the maturation process. Forgiveness in itself is a process whose length and difficulty vary by situation. Sometimes, we feel as though certain things could just never ever be forgiven. I urge you to remember that you are not perfect and have also inflicted hurt and disappointment to someone else at some point in your life. Hopefully, all encounters with forgiveness (forgiving others, others forgiving us and us forgiving ourselves) are lessons learned about how we allow others to treat us, how we treat others and how we treat ourselves.

Letting Go...

Have you ever wondered why you always end up getting hurt? Have you ever wondered what you have done to deserve the constant lack of respect for you and your feelings? Have you ever wondered why your kind and caring approach to people isn’t always reciprocated?

I have discovered the answer…in most cases, it is because people only treat you the way that you allow them to. We have a lot more control than we choose to realize over the kinds of feelings that would cause one to pose the questions listed above. We are not as helpless and powerless as we think we are. As Eleanor Roosevelt once said, “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.”

The problem is we hold onto who that person was or who we want them to be. We make excuses for their behavior. It takes two people to have a friendship or be in a relationship and one person cannot carry that weight. It’s simply impossible. In doing so, it is inevitable that we experience the hurt, disrespect and lack of reciprocity. Is it really worth it? Life is too short to try to change someone that you know doesn’t want to change. What you can change is them being in your life. Of course, this is much easier said than done. Letting go is one of the hardest things we face in life. However, time is one of the most unforgiving things. Once it’s gone, you can never get it back. So ask yourself, are you investing your time in the actual person or who they used to be or who they have the potential to be?

Always remember, you are wonderful and amazing! Anyone should be happy to share a friendship or relationship with you and if they choose not to, then that is their loss. You deserve nothing less than the best

Valentines Day Poem...

I wrote this shit for my girl a while back...


I'm sure you'll know when im gone.
when i am at first it'll seem wrong

Hamilton girls throw me away quick
from 11 to 16 take your pick (lol)

i have no size
to lose me something else has to rise

to keep me, don't chill with horny guys
if your decent
you'll give that certain dude a try

i am transparent
you can't see me, and
eventually you'll want to get rid of me

what am i?

i am your...

No Testimony Without Test

The older we get, the responsibilities and challenges we face get bigger and more difficult. Just when things have finally been going well for a while, something or someone comes along and turns our world upside down.

I’m sure you have heard the wise saying passed down from older generations that, “There is no testimony without a test.” A lot of times during tranquil moments, we stop praying or thinking about what God has done for us. We stop thanking Him and then when a “test” comes along we start calling on Him and expect Him to come running! God wants to know if we can trust him even in the midst of our troubles, heartbreaks, disappointments, grief, whatever it may be! How is He going to find that out or develop that in us, if we are not tested? He wants us to love Him all the time and not just for what He can do for us. Some people, including me at times, take on these victimized mentalities which cloud the things which should be the true focus. “What did I do to deserve this?” “Why is this happening to me now of all times?” I look at my plate and how full it is and I get overwhelmed! I don’t need to look at the plate though, I need to look to God and remember that He can do the impossible!

The tests that we encounter in life are essential to helping us appreciate good times more, teaching us life lessons and giving us a testimony to share. Whenever you find yourself dealing with really difficult times, remember that in order for there to be a valley, there has to be two mountains

An Old Poem

I was just going through my emails and found an old poem of mine.

I thought it was pretty good so I figured I'd share it with whoever it is that
visits my page.

Here you go, a little Vintage Jonny:

Media had taken me away from me
Confused and unsure of what i wanted to be
Categorized peers made being myself tough
Retaining my own image had also been a little rough
I was the shortest in my class, looking up to everyone
Spoke with a high pitch tone, I sounded like Maryon

Now I'm me myself and I know where i fit in society
Im optimistic about my future and have created a path to fidelity
I've also become more of an individual, going in my own direction
I am ok, but i know i will soon be in need of some love and affection.
Finally, I am looking down on others, and my voice has changed
To fanticise is a hobby, which is kinda strange.
But through all of this, I've learned one main thing
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I think I was looking ahead in this poem
Because the 2nd part seems as if i was saying it now, but this
was all written in the same time.

It almost stands correct. Other than the "voice has changed" part

Hahaha...

until next time people. Take care

Words from a friend of mine :)

I had nothing to say on love today so i figured I'd find someone that did -

Girls that depend on guys for everything, ain't shit.

Driving you everywhere.
Paying for everything.
Gives you money all the time expecting you to pay him back but you don’t.
Buys all your drinks at the club, although you have your own money.
Even if he doesn't offer to buy you make it seem like he has to.

If you don't have a job? Get one.
If you don't have money at the time... Pay him back.
If you're just lazy and cheap, well then your just waste.

Yeah, sometimes it’s cute, sweet and expected.
But bitches take things for granted and they feel as if their the shit because a MAN buys you everything you have.
"Yeah my mans pays my phone bill, he drives me to mall whenever, blahblahblah, he buys my clothes."
Shut up, you sound so worthless.

But appreciate it and do over do it is all I'm saying.
But you have to show him what's good, show him what your capable of.
It's a much better turn on.
Independence, is the hottest thing.

Written by: A friend of mine

Favorite Film - Pursuit of Happiness

“Don’t ever let someone tell you that you can’t do something. Not even me. You got a dream, you gotta protect it. People can’t do something themselves, they wanna tell you that you can’t do it. You want something? Go get it. Period.”

-Chris Gardner (played by Will Smith in The Pursuit of Happyness)

This quote encompasses one of the greatest lessons that we will ever learn in life. Nothing that is worthwhile comes easily. You should never let trivial things stop you from getting whatever it is that you want! No successful person lets stumbling blocks or unsupportive people get in the way of them reaching their goals. Those types of things differentiate people who are dedicated to reaching their goals and people who are just hoping that things will fall into their laps. If you haven’t already done so, think about things that you want to change or achieve 6 months from now, a year from now and so on. Make a plan of how you are going to accomplish this and put the plan into action. Easier said than done? Of course it is! Impossible? Definitely not. You can do anything that you put your mind to…

Keep this in mind when it comes to anything in life and its very likely that good things will happen to you.